The day that was entirely too emotional…

OR

The day I hit my fucking 10% lost goal.

What?

Yeah. You read that right. I lost 5.8 lbs this week. I don’t know how I did it. I am fairly convinced that stress is the main cause for it all. But I am officially 240 pounds AND ALMOST UNDER IT.

This morning, before I weighed myself, after I woke up severely hungover (or still fucking drunk, I’m not sure), I saw a post from my husband on Google+. Our baby, our kitten, had not been adopted yet. Kudos to whoever wrote the description for him on the Oregon Humane Society page, though. Warcraft fan, ftw! *fistbump* I bawled. For a while. As much as I miss him, him not being adjusted to shelter life and having troubles getting adopted is fucking heartbreaking. And I’m so conflicted because if he doesn’t get adopted, we might be able to adopt him again!

So, that’s what caused a large amount of emotion this morning.

Then I lost a lot of weight. I didn’t do much this week other than go hiking up a hill for only 50 minutes. I am not sure if it’s the stress, my hormones balancing, or my body just getting used to the weight loss. I lost ten fucking percent of my starting weight. If you want to get really technical, since I came to Oregon last May, I have lost forty fucking pounds. Seriously. FORTY.

I am in a bit of shock. I didn’t expect weight loss this week. I’ve been going over  my calories, and not really exercising. I am losing as much weight as some people do on The Biggest Loser, but with doing hardly anything… It’s so conflicting. I am sitting here telling myself that it can’t be proper weight loss. The scale is wrong (it is, but we know by how much). It’s muscle loss. Everything I can to tell myself that there is no way this is proper weight loss.

That’s how fucked I am in the head.

So, emotional day today.

We looked at my ID last night, with my picture that was taken in July. Uh. I was fat. My face was very, very fluffy. Look at that! That was me back in July.

I mean, I’m still fat, but just not as much. I mean, this is me a few weeks ago. I’m probably even skinnier now, but I haven’t taken a good shot of myself in a while. That difference, though.

You really don’t notice this shit when it’s happening to you. :3

Here’s to another 30 lbs lost, hopefully another 40 shortly, and then I will be under 200 lbs for the first time in my adult life.

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4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Christie (@62nvon)
    Feb 28, 2012 @ 12:27:47

    Wow, the difference in the pics is pretty awesome! Go, YOU!

    Reply

  2. Adam (@adamm9)
    Feb 29, 2012 @ 13:16:48

    Awesome job! 10% is a great milestone!

    Reply

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