Day 4: Totally worth everything.

Yesterday I took a day off. It was good. If I didn’t, I’m sure I would have done terrible damage to the lifting muscles in my thighs (this muscle, specifically – the opposite one was pretty angry, too). Had some menthol on them, heat compress for a bit, let the heat just sit in them, and tried to not do much yesterday. It was a good, relaxing day.

Today, I felt amazing. That one exercise I couldn’t do more than 15 of on Monday, 17 of on Tuesday, I managed to get all 20 reps in today. And it didn’t burn as much. One of the others that I was burning on by the last 5 (the one that REALLY works the vastus medialus and lateralis), I only felt the burn in the last TWO, and wasn’t feeling too shaky after. I feel really good after that, and might be able to do some cardio tomorrow!

I also decreased the amount of time I am spending on the exercises. The good side of this is that it means I am getting stronger. WOO. The bad side of this means that My Fitness Pal thinks I am not burning as much because I am not going as long. I am upset that even though I am doing the same amount of work (right now), I am not getting the calories that reflect that. However, I do understand that the stronger I get, the more likely it is that I will need more weights and stuff to burn as much.

I am seeing a change this week. I see bits of my legs under my belly that I can’t remember the last time I saw. I can see my stomach going in again. I can feel that the fat is thinning out, which is what would happen when I lost a good chunk of weight. So I am confident that this change I did is exactly what I needed. I am still not expecting much loss tomorrow, but I do expect good loss next week. :)


I posted back in February about really, REALLY bad cramping, and a sudden appearance of a period. I was told that my IUD probably fell out. Derpy me thought, “Nah, it just doesn’t do that, and I am not at risk for it!” Well, 3 months later, I finally checked for the string after the third period (NORMAL, MIGHT I ADD) since the pain. The string isn’t there. Or, at least, I can’t find it.

So I start freaking out last night. Not only do I have to figure out how to pay for an ultrasound, but I have to figure out how to pay for a new IUD if it did indeed fall out! Looked up the closest Planned Parenthood to me to get a price for at least the ultrasound. There’s one in Ashland and one in Medford. I know Medford is bigger, so I thought calling them would be best.

I call them and find out they don’t have an ultrasound machine there. “Where do you refer patients to if they need one?” I asked the very sweet woman on the phone. She tells me Ashland’s Planned Parenthood. Well, that works out well. So I call the Ashland PP and explain everything again. “No, I am pretty sure I’m not pregnant. I think I lost it in February. I am not living with my husband but I AM sexually active with him and would like this fixed asap.” The woman on the phone was a fucking pro. Got me an appointment for next Thursday, and even made sure the provider that’s there on Thursdays will be able to give me an ultrasound, just in case I need it.

Price was a major concern for me. I cried about it last night. I was scared. There are a few things that CAN go wrong if the IUD is simply dislodged or even attaching itself to my uterus. I have to make sure that it’s not in there anymore. I found out that in Oregon, if you are a citizen, you are eligible for a state grant that COMPLETELY COVERS birth control and its associated appointments. What a fucking weight off my chest! All I need is my ID and my birth certificate, which I have here, and it should be completely covered. That makes me so happy. I can even get a new IUD if the first one is for sure not in there anymore for free! I am seriously thankful for the state of Oregon and its grant fund for women like me. I really don’t know what I would do if I were in Texas…

I’ll update that next week, too! Hopefully it’s completely out and all I need is a new one. :)


New plan – Shock the body.

In response to my post yesterday, I got some great advice. Some from Christie and Jenni, but also some from Sid (or, well, Eric is his real name, but he’s always Sid in my head from a forum he was Almighty God on). And I am going to try to follow it all, as best as I can.

(I got advice from Sid a few years ago while I was “interested” in weight loss, not “committed”. He gave me a ton of advice that I still follow today, and I really respect his opinion/advice; even if he is one of the worst people when it comes to making me fall for things!)

I am breaking for a few days from exercise, and have increased my calories. Increasing calories is hard on My Fitness Pal, but I did get it over 1400, and I’m going to try that for a while. I am also going to switch cardio to doing body weight exercises and light weight muscle toning exercises (which is what my belly dancing videos essentially are, and going to try the stuff from Prevention magazine that I wrote about yesterday, too). I want to try this for two weeks and see how I am after that.

What we pretty much established is I probably ate too little while exercising, and my body is likely in starvation mode. It’s storing everything I end up burning because it thinks it’s being starved. Probably my fault, also probably due to MFP having the calories set a bit too low. My body is also probably used to the high intensity cardio I’ve been doing (tae bo), and just needs some different things.

So! Shocking my body by eating more this weekend (which…I over did yesterday, but that guacamole was SO good >.>). Changing my exercises up on Monday. Testing this for two weeks. We’ll see how my body reacts after it. The ballet exercises that have the weights are part of a 30 day challenge type thing, so I will at least finish that out before I switch back to my other things that I was doing before (though it wants me to do high intensity cardio on 2 or 3 days, I will probably only do that on my days off, and do 30 minutes of tae bo only).

Loving this plan so much, and I am confident about it. :) Cannot wait to post happy posts about my weight loss again! ;)

And now, your reminder. There at the top right is a widget that explains my birthday wish, but you can totally check out the full blog post here. TL;DR – I am trying to raise money for a beginner’s roller derby set that I can get for my birthday. This will probably also help shake things up for me. :) You can donate here with PayPal or here with your credit/debit card. Thanks for ANY amount you can spare. If you can’t, try spreading the word for me.

The plateau monster has eated me.

I lost 2 tenths of a pound this week. Really? The amount of work that I have been doing and I lost TWO TENTHS OF A POUND?

EDIT: I just pooped. Even after already having coffee, I ended up losing 0.4 more lbs, making a total of 0.6 this week. Better. Still plateaued.

Least to say, I’m a little pissed.

I have seen people say they hit plateaus for months. I have seen people say they hit a plateau for 2 years (5 pounds until goal, even). Plateaus fucking suck giant donkey dick, and I’m pissed at my body right now.

“Hey, hormones, I have a great idea! Let’s fuck with Melissa’s weight and see how pissed off we can get her!” exclaims my brain.

“Sure, brain! I mean, we have to listen to you anyway! You’re the control system!” I imagine my hormones replied.

*flips off her body*

I have officially been hanging in a 3 pound range (231-234) for the past month. Almost exactly. That is ridiculous! It’s officially a plateau in my head, and I don’t know what I can do to change it.

I am seriously lucky for my friends on Twitter. I don’t know what I would do right now, but two of them (the ones who had the plateaus I’ve mentioned) are on top of it and sending me all the plateau-breaking shit ever. Have to give a huge shout out to Sarah Nelson, because if it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t have found Christie and Jenni (and Jenni’s husband, Adam). Christie and Jenni are all over it, handing me articles and tips on how to get out of this funk with my body. Quite thankful right now to have support from people who have lost weight and are now coaches for others losing weight. And it’s a huge plus that they are fucking hilarious, too. :) Massive love to them.

I’ll get out of this, I don’t know when, but I am going to change up my routine and shock my system a bit. Might go back to my belly dancing videos that do toning for a while instead of tae bo, look at my mom’s ballet exercises she got from Prevention magazine, and all the articles ever from Jenni and Christie.

OH. Right! Measurements! Which have changed! :)

  • Neck: 15.5 (0)
  • Bust: 48.0 (0)
  • Ribs: 39.0 (-0.5)
  • Waist: 49.0 (-0.5)
  • Hips: 51.0 (0)

Annoyed at my hips, as they haven’t changed in 6 weeks. Muscle gain is probably to blame for that with my running that I’ve started and uphill walking. BUT, I am going to change this up and see how I change in the next month. :)

And now, your reminder. There at the top right is a widget that explains my birthday wish, but you can totally check out the full blog post here. TL;DR – I am trying to raise money for a beginner’s roller derby set that I can get for my birthday. This will probably also help shake things up for me. :) You can donate here with PayPal or here with your credit/debit card. Thanks for ANY amount you can spare. If you can’t, try spreading the word for me.