New plan – Shock the body.

In response to my post yesterday, I got some great advice. Some from Christie and Jenni, but also some from Sid (or, well, Eric is his real name, but he’s always Sid in my head from a forum he was Almighty God on). And I am going to try to follow it all, as best as I can.

(I got advice from Sid a few years ago while I was “interested” in weight loss, not “committed”. He gave me a ton of advice that I still follow today, and I really respect his opinion/advice; even if he is one of the worst people when it comes to making me fall for things!)

I am breaking for a few days from exercise, and have increased my calories. Increasing calories is hard on My Fitness Pal, but I did get it over 1400, and I’m going to try that for a while. I am also going to switch cardio to doing body weight exercises and light weight muscle toning exercises (which is what my belly dancing videos essentially are, and going to try the stuff from Prevention magazine that I wrote about yesterday, too). I want to try this for two weeks and see how I am after that.

What we pretty much established is I probably ate too little while exercising, and my body is likely in starvation mode. It’s storing everything I end up burning because it thinks it’s being starved. Probably my fault, also probably due to MFP having the calories set a bit too low. My body is also probably used to the high intensity cardio I’ve been doing (tae bo), and just needs some different things.

So! Shocking my body by eating more this weekend (which…I over did yesterday, but that guacamole was SO good >.>). Changing my exercises up on Monday. Testing this for two weeks. We’ll see how my body reacts after it. The ballet exercises that have the weights are part of a 30 day challenge type thing, so I will at least finish that out before I switch back to my other things that I was doing before (though it wants me to do high intensity cardio on 2 or 3 days, I will probably only do that on my days off, and do 30 minutes of tae bo only).

Loving this plan so much, and I am confident about it. :) Cannot wait to post happy posts about my weight loss again! ;)

And now, your reminder. There at the top right is a widget that explains my birthday wish, but you can totally check out the full blog post here. TL;DR – I am trying to raise money for a beginner’s roller derby set that I can get for my birthday. This will probably also help shake things up for me. :) You can donate here with PayPal or here with your credit/debit card. Thanks for ANY amount you can spare. If you can’t, try spreading the word for me.


The plateau monster has eated me.

I lost 2 tenths of a pound this week. Really? The amount of work that I have been doing and I lost TWO TENTHS OF A POUND?

EDIT: I just pooped. Even after already having coffee, I ended up losing 0.4 more lbs, making a total of 0.6 this week. Better. Still plateaued.

Least to say, I’m a little pissed.

I have seen people say they hit plateaus for months. I have seen people say they hit a plateau for 2 years (5 pounds until goal, even). Plateaus fucking suck giant donkey dick, and I’m pissed at my body right now.

“Hey, hormones, I have a great idea! Let’s fuck with Melissa’s weight and see how pissed off we can get her!” exclaims my brain.

“Sure, brain! I mean, we have to listen to you anyway! You’re the control system!” I imagine my hormones replied.

*flips off her body*

I have officially been hanging in a 3 pound range (231-234) for the past month. Almost exactly. That is ridiculous! It’s officially a plateau in my head, and I don’t know what I can do to change it.

I am seriously lucky for my friends on Twitter. I don’t know what I would do right now, but two of them (the ones who had the plateaus I’ve mentioned) are on top of it and sending me all the plateau-breaking shit ever. Have to give a huge shout out to Sarah Nelson, because if it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t have found Christie and Jenni (and Jenni’s husband, Adam). Christie and Jenni are all over it, handing me articles and tips on how to get out of this funk with my body. Quite thankful right now to have support from people who have lost weight and are now coaches for others losing weight. And it’s a huge plus that they are fucking hilarious, too. :) Massive love to them.

I’ll get out of this, I don’t know when, but I am going to change up my routine and shock my system a bit. Might go back to my belly dancing videos that do toning for a while instead of tae bo, look at my mom’s ballet exercises she got from Prevention magazine, and all the articles ever from Jenni and Christie.

OH. Right! Measurements! Which have changed! :)

  • Neck: 15.5 (0)
  • Bust: 48.0 (0)
  • Ribs: 39.0 (-0.5)
  • Waist: 49.0 (-0.5)
  • Hips: 51.0 (0)

Annoyed at my hips, as they haven’t changed in 6 weeks. Muscle gain is probably to blame for that with my running that I’ve started and uphill walking. BUT, I am going to change this up and see how I change in the next month. :)

And now, your reminder. There at the top right is a widget that explains my birthday wish, but you can totally check out the full blog post here. TL;DR – I am trying to raise money for a beginner’s roller derby set that I can get for my birthday. This will probably also help shake things up for me. :) You can donate here with PayPal or here with your credit/debit card. Thanks for ANY amount you can spare. If you can’t, try spreading the word for me.

Birthdaaaaaaaay request!

First, I wasn’t going to mention my birthday other than going up to Portland to see my husband. I was, and still kind of am, super depressed about this birthday and I was going to be passive-aggressive and see if anyone even fucking remembered it. Turning 27 is hard for me. I’m going into my late-twenties with the only accomplishment that I’ve done being graduating from trade school and not even having a degree to show it (only a diploma certificate). I know everyone goes through the “getting older” freak out, but remember that fear is perspective, please, and try not to talk me down right now. It only pisses me off more.

Second, I decided that I am serious about roller derby, and really want a beginner’s set so that I can start getting into it. Not only do I love skating (or, well, did), but I love the community that roller derby seems to have, and I want that. I want to feel like I belong, because it’s been a year since I felt that, and 5 years before that. As anti-social as I seem to have become, I apparently thrive in social situations that make me feel comfortable (there were some social events that I have done where I still felt completely left out and fucking awkward).

Don’t know if you are reading this via email or not, but in my widgets is a new one that has a link. This one, in fact. Look at that price! $235 for everything that I need, and that’s at a decent discount already. There IS a cheaper set, but they don’t have my size for it. :\ Now, I’m not asking for someone to outright buy it for me (though, honestly, I wouldn’t refuse that, either). What I want are BIRTHDAY DONATIONS. YAAAAAY. Pull together and try to get the money raised so I can do this.

When I posted about it on Facebook, Google+, and Twitter last night, I was about 75% serious. I really want it, but I highly doubted anyone wanted to put money up for it. Well, someone offered, so I set up my PayPal button for it. I am now accepting donations towards it. There is a link up in the corner, but here’s one in this post as well. Once I get the money, I will take a screen shot of whatever order confirmation I get and then take pictures when I get the stuff! :D

I’m excited. I want this. It’s something that will help me get skinny. We were going to get it for me for when I got down to a size 18 (which I’m almost at), but when shit happened back in February, it’s made it nearly impossible for me to get it, even in small amounts. If you don’t have PayPal but would still like to donate, there is a link at the bottom of that page that I’ll also post here. That lets you use a credit/debit card, or a bank account (where available). Everyone wins! (Maybe not, but you’ll be making me happy in this depressing time of my life, so that has to count for something, right?)

I’ll post the link at the bottom of every post I do on here. Thanks for everything you guys do for me, even making me smile daily does help my sanity for the most part. <3

Derby derby derby derby…

As I said on Friday, I went to a derby bout last night. I had an absolute blast. Seriously. I fucking love derby so hard. I WISH I COULD JOIN A TEAM.

Favorite picture from last night?

That would be Anita Blunt taking an epic tumble. LOVE these girls. They make me feel so incredibly empowered, and they are so super fun to hang out with.

The main point of this post is actually me being super proud of myself. I went over my calories today, but I barely did yesterday. We walked around for about 2 hours total, so the hot wings and fries I had at the bar didn’t make me go over too much. ;) I am really proud of myself. Out and about, in a different town, and totally didn’t go overboard!

This makes me realize that I CAN go out and do stuff and still be able to control myself. This makes me really happy. We had Taco Bell yesterday, but I only had 3 Supreme Tacos (600 calories), and showed my mom the fresco menu there.

I am super sleepy right now, and really can’t post a real post. I just wanted to post about how proud I am of myself.

Last weekly weigh day!

Like I said earlier this week, I will no longer be weighing myself weekly. I think after nearly 6 months of every other week showing progress, I can safely say that biweekly weigh ins will be infinitely better than weekly ones.

This week I lost 3.6 lbs from last week, making me at exactly 40 pounds lost since I started this in November. I was 271 then, and I’m now 231. Forty pounds lost in 6 months is well within healthy range, and that makes me happy. Yes, it’s slow going; but I am happy with the progress I’ve made and will continue doing. When I moved to Portland, I was 284, and that was almost a year ago. Measurements!

  • Neck: 15.5 (0)
  • Bust: 48.0 (-0.5)
  • Ribs: 39.5 (0)
  • Waist: 49.5 (-0.5)
  • Hips: 51 (0)

I am super proud of myself. I have gone from a size 26 in pants to a size 20; a size 4X in shirts to a 2X, and in some cases, an XL. I have gone from being extremely weak and out of shape to being able to carry several bags of groceries from the car and up stairs. And I am not even half way to my goal.

I realized today that I don’t even pay attention to the weight loss anymore. I know it is going to happen, it’s just a question as to how much. Loss or gain doesn’t phase me anymore. I get excited when I get into the next lower “tens” of weight, and I love getting to percentage goals (in fact, this is 15% right here at 40 lbs lost…well, 14.7%, but that is DAMN close). The weekly weigh ins, though, just don’t do anything for me. I think changing it up to every 2 weeks will be better for me with this.

I’m going to a DERBY BOUT TOMORROW. I am so excited about this. It’s the first one I’ve been to in over a year. A friend of my mom’s is on the derby team in Redding, CA, and we’re driving down there to go see her skate! She’s actually on the roster. So excited for her. I miss going to derby. So much. And I cannot wait to be able to start preparing to join a team myself.

Now! I need to be off to eat, because I’ve been up well over 2 hours and haven’t done so. Bad, Missy.