Woohoo! A loss!

Wasn’t much of a loss, but pretty much everything I gained last week has been lost this week. :D That makes me happy. Back down to 229.4 lbs.

I ran into another couch earlier this week. Monday night, to be exact. Resulting in…a sprained toe. The same toe that I broke. I was really scared that I broke it again, but when I woke up Tuesday and the pain had mostly subsided, I was quite thankful. However, I spent all of Tuesday and Wednesday off my feet for the most part. Yesterday I went and got my hair cut (still need to dye it, jeebus), and today I went out and decided my toe was well enough for exercising. I went without Chris, since we ended up staying up later than we wanted last night. And no, my toe didn’t like it, but it didn’t completely stop me, either. That’s a good sign for me. :)

I did well, methinks. I did a lot of the stuff that Chris and I do together, upped a lot of the weight (oh, my abs might hate me later), and even found a good pectoral fly machine that makes sure only your pecs are working. I did 30 minutes total on the elliptical, and my normal stretches. Then …I got naked in the gym.

Okay, this is probably literally the first time I’ve been naked in public since high school swim class… (Totally not counting those times….wait…my mom reads this blog. HI, MOM.) And I would just like to point out that I didn’t feel…exposed at all. It was really weird. I didn’t have any anxiety about it, I just did it. The entire month I’ve been going to the gym, I have been telling myself, “They all have the same body parts as you, they are all here to get healthy, and they are all in their own little worlds.” And it’s true. It helped so much telling myself that for so long. I still felt awkward when I had to not have panties on (it’s TOM, and I don’t wear tampons anymore since my period isn’t that heavy), but it was just slightly awkward.

I’m oddly proud of myself. I have super horrible anxiety problems. I don’t think I’m ready to be taking nude photos of myself yet, but I have some confidence now. It’s…freeing.

I looked at pictures of me from November. I told myself I wasn’t going to post those kinds of progress photos; the ones where you stand in front of stuff to see how much you have changed. But I will be. Tomorrow, in fact. I hope it really shows as much progress as I see. :D

This is my last week not working. I start up at Stream on Monday at 6 am. It’s going to be weird. Chris and I will see each other for my lunch daily and on the weekends. That’s it. We’ll be sleeping half of our sleep together, and exercising separately. For 4 weeks. At least I get to see him some. This has made me super anxious for the past few days. I do this, though. I will force myself through it and will be happier for it. Happens every time.

:3 See you all tomorrow with some “nakie” pictures of myself. :D


How does this not depress you?

Fact of the matter is that I gained this week. And not the measly little things I had been gaining before. I gained 2.5 lbs this week, and ended back up into the 230’s.

Two weeks of gaining hit me really, REALLY hard today. I am still not discouraged by any means, but I am super disappointed in myself. I wouldn’t have been so depressed if my measurements came back as actually losing something significant. I kind of want to cry again just thinking about it. If I gain again next week, I don’t know what I am doing wrong to actually be gaining. I haven’t had a gain so large after a week of gaining before, and it just hit me so hard that I gained so much. Most of the time that I gained this much, the week prior I had lost a large number, so it was expected!

I’m mostly fine now. I am pretty sure that this past weekend affected me more than I thought it would. I saw something on Twitter from @Fitness that said “diet mistakes are harder to overcome than missed workouts. ” It has to be so true in this case. I have indulged before, but never to the extent of not logging, and of the amount of sugar that I did.

And at least it wasn’t double that weight that I gained.

Measurements! Doing both mine and Chris’ from now on! Mine:

  • Neck: 15.5 (0)
  • Bust: 47.0 (0)
  • Ribs: 38.0 (0)
  • Waist: 44.25 (-0.75)
  • Hips: 50.0 (0)

For Chris, we’re tracking a couple more things. I expect things to change up and down for him more on his biceps, and not much to change on his hips since we measure under his belly (where he wears his pants).

  • Neck: 18.0
  • Bicep: 16.5
  • Ribs: 49.5
  • Waist: 48.5
  • Hips: 47.0
  • Thigh: 24.75

Since he won’t keep track of these anywhere else, I will keep track of them for him. I am just happy that he is letting me do this. :3

(If you have met my husband,  you will know that if he doesn’t want something done to him, he will make sure it doesn’t happen.)

That’s it for today. Lazy, hot weekend ahead of us, but good, nonetheless. Back to it Monday, and hoping for a much better week next week. :\

Something seems to be working!

This week was a terrific loss! It’s the most I’ve lost in a week for a month now, and I am so happy with it. I am down exactly 3 lbs this week, but I have even more news! I ACTUALLY saw the fat percentage go down. This is the first time in 6 months I’ve actually seen it drop, and it made me seriously happy. I still think it’s lying to me, but it moved after months of never changing!

Today was also measurement day. I will get to those shortly.

I spent the week on my back. Much like a hooker, but without the money and sex. As I said earlier this week, I have a suspected herniated disc. It’s not fun. I can’t really sit up without some sort of assistance still. And today my pleurisy decided it was going to flare up after years of not having a bad event. So, it’s been an interesting day, but I worked through it all.

Did SO many exercises that I can’t even begin to think of everything we did. I went up in weight for most everything, though, and did lower reps. Always stopped before I hurt myself. I have a feeling that I will be sore tomorrow, which is fine, not much to do this weekend. I worked out every muscle I could except for calve lifts (since I would be jumping on the elliptical). The elliptical was a challenge today. I don’t know what it was about it, but 9 minutes in and I was just not feeling it. I was tired. Told myself at 10 minutes I would stop. Ten minutes hit, I kept going. Reminded myself that I wasn’t in pain, out of breath, or dying, and that I could fucking suck it up. Finished my last 10 minutes. Felt like a champ after I finished it, too. Didn’t burn as much as I have before on it because I was slacking hardcore the first 10 minutes, but I was only a few calories short. :3

All in all, did about an hour and a half of weights (sharing machines with my husband) and 22 minutes of cardio. It was a good day. I hope I feel it! :D


  • Neck: 15.5 (0)
  • Bust: 47.0 (-0.5)
  • Ribs: 38.0 (0)
  • Waist: 45.0 (-1)
  • Hips: 50.0 (-0.25)

I can see everything I’m losing on my waist. It’s pretty amazing. My hips are slower, but hopefully with the next measurement day (in 2 weeks), I will drop below 50 inches!

I am officially past 15% again. Will have to do the Japanese Gardens soon like we planned. :3 My husband will be so happy about that. :)

The surprise weigh day!

So, if you didn’t read last night’s post, I decided to stick to weighing  myself once a week because I had a panic attack about such a small change.

Seriously, I really didn’t think that it would be so bad.

Anyway. Weight came in as plus one pound. Okay, body. Stop it. I’ve been hovering around 230 for a month. Just let me breeze past it. It’s like I go really well through the rest of the numbers, but once I get to a number that ends in zero, my body just fucking refuses to go past it.

My husband kindly pointed out that this is what happened around 250. I just checked my logs, and it happened around 240, too, but I wasn’t as concerned with it since I wasn’t really working out!

Trying to increase my heavy cardio workouts to 2 or 3 times a week right now. It’s been so long since I’ve done them that I really shouldn’t push myself.

I have been losing weight at a very steady pace, and this is all good. I cannot remember the last time I was in the 220’s, and was just really excited to get into them and past my 15% goal, too. *flips off the scale*

So, I’m going to be kind of grumpy today because I can. Doesn’t help that my back really hurts and I keep getting vertigo spells. I’ll be better tomorrow.

Running and tae bo – Back into the grind!

Yesterday, I did running again. I ran almost an entire mile in one go.

…well, it was three goes. But still! Pretty sure if I could run continuously that I would have ran the mile in less than 15 minutes. I am super proud of myself. Cannot wait until I can run the full mile!

Walking back home was pretty annoying, lol. That’s the hardest part of this entire thing. Run downhill, walk back up the hill. But I get a good workout with it.

Did tae bo today! I was only able to pull off 20 minutes of it, plus 15 minutes of before and after stretches and 5 minutes of push ups (which, in retrospect, was not a good idea AFTER I did tae bo). I am super proud of myself with that.

I have to say, I’m really proud of myself all around right now. I don’t feel nearly as bad as I did when I wasn’t able to do shit with the boot on. I feel so much better, free, able to do anything! And I AM doing everything I can. I want to go hiking. This weekend might be perfect for it, but it’s supposed to rain tomorrow some more, and it’s been raining all day today. Don’t like mud hiking.

Even though I said last week that I will be going to weighing myself every two weeks, I’m not. I had severe anxiety today due to not weighing myself tomorrow. So I will continue weighing myself weekly. I have been weighing myself every week for six months, and I really, really dislike change to the point that I start panicking. I didn’t realize that something so small as not weighing myself would have such a large impact on me.

So, weigh post tomorrow! Hopefully me being active again will be a terrific weigh in tomorrow! :D

Huwhuuuuuuu? Another post?

Yes, people, it’s true. I am doing another post. “Why?” you may ask?

Uh, well, it’s weigh in day, derp. Jeez. You’ve been reading this long and you really have to ask?

I totally lost 6 pounds this week, landing me at 232.2 lbs. Holy fuckballs. I’m almost out of the 230’s, yo! That’s…well…pretty fucking great. Also, it’s measurement day, and I lost some!

  • Neck: 15.5 (-0.5)
  • Bust: 48.5 (no difference)
  • Ribs: 39.5 (-0.5)
  • Waist: 50 (-0.5)
  • Hips: 51 (-0.5)

Even though it’s not much, my ribs are under 40 inches! That’s a bit of a shock. And exciting! I was CONVINCED all week that I had gained a horrendous amount; that I was getting fatter. Which, I guess I can see why I thought my face was getting fatter since I lost weight on my neck (also, when I flex my neck now, I can see VEINS AND TENDONS). So, now that I saw the measurement loss, that makes sense.

Today I started some calisthenics to keep up on myself. I did 10 push ups! Since I can’t use my foot because of the boot, they were only knee push ups, but I DID TEN OF THEM. And then I did the floor ab workouts from my belly dancing videos. It was only 15 minutes of work with stretching, but I felt it. It was bad. I plan on increasing my push ups, which will be done every day, by 5 on Mondays. Not starting this Monday, as I only just started today, but next Monday. I need to keep up on this while I am STILL wearing the boot so that I don’t lose any muscle.

I went over my calories a few times, ate a dozen peanut butter cookies (okay, 11 cookies, over the course of 3 days), did shit for exercising… Guess I just shocked my body or something. Whatever. I ain’t complainin’! Plan on doing my little workouts here and there to keep up on my muscles, but nothing too extravagant while this stupid boot is on.

OH. I totally drank way more water and way less soda/coffee this week, too. So that probably helped. And when I say soda, I mean Coke Zero, because screw those calories. :D

Off to make some more peanut butter cookies (under 100 calories per cookie? fuck. yes). And probably going to make some more tea because holy shit is my husband awesome. He brought some down here for me, and I am IN LOVE with the stuff he brought. :3


….this all seemed quite random. Well, I think I’m hitting an up cycle (finally), so my mind won’t shut up. Sorry if nothing is quite clear in this post….