Partial recap of the month…

So, some of you might remember that I posted about my goal to lose 5 lbs this month in this post. I had been slacking. Letting myself slip. I was really depressed most of February because I had to leave my husband behind in Portland. I know I will be able to see him again (unlike my boys), but it’s really painful to be so far away. Whoever fucking said that distance doesn’t matter when you love something so much was in utter denial. Distance is everything to me right now. >:(

ANYWAY. *cough*

Yes. I didn’t cut back on alcohol much, but I did make sure to not go COMPLETELY over my calories, or do some heavy exercise the next day. There were a couple times where that didn’t happen. In fact, a lot of this week I ended up going over on my calories, but not by much. My gain this week was only 0.8 lbs, so I don’t find that as TOO bad. My gains have been quite small compared to the previous week’s loss! And this gain still kept me over my weight loss goal for this month!

I should probably say what that was!

My weight on 3/2 was 243.6 lbs. My weight today is 236.4 lbs. Total loss this month is 7.2 lbs! More than my goal (woohoo) and almost spot on with my monthly average I mentioned in the post linked above.

Today was also measurement day, but I had absolutely no loss with that in the past 2 weeks. That right there is quite odd to me, because I am pretty sure I’ve always had a loss with my measurements before. To be fair, though, I WAS measuring myself with a stretchy string…lol!

I don’t know if I mentioned it here on the blog, but I am wearing a boot for my retarded broken toe. It hasn’t been healing. It’s almost there, but then I exercise or walk around for longer than an hour and all of a sudden it’s swollen for a day or two again. So, I threw the boot on and I’m taking it easy for a bit. Only a week right now, but we shall see how I am on Tuesday or Wednesday without it on. I don’t WANT to wear the boot when Chris is here next week (OMFG SIX DAYS GUYS), but I will do it if my body says I have to.

Another idea was given to me by The Biggest Loser last night with money incentive for loss. Not the $1,000 they were doing per pound, but the idea is still cool nonetheless. With me wearing the boot right now, though, the incentive is just kind of wasted. I can’t do many exercises, so I’m only eating healthy right now (well, yeah, mostly). But once I am out of this boot, it’s on like fucking Donkey Kong!

Speaking of The Biggest Loser, holy fuck, was this last episode just FULL of the worst advertisements I’ve seen in a while. The beginning of the show was pretty much nothing but a huge ad for Newman’s. Holy. Fucking. Shit. I really only slightly pay attention to the show now. An hour and a half (on Hulu) is entirely too long for it now. Just…ugh. /rant

I’m teaching myself how to code! I want to be useful! Learning JavaScript right now. Will be teaching myself Python in the future. No, this is not a place to suggest what to learn. I’ve already made up my mind. :P I discovered Codecademy yesterday, and I fucking love it. The math is getting harder, but I am having so much fun actually making things WORK. :3

It’s rainy season here! Klamath Falls apparently has proper seasons here! This is good news for me, because it means it will be warming up soon, and I might be able to go HIKING again! YAY. I mean, I can’t do anything with this stupid ass toe, but shortly I will be able to hike and see the town all green (instead of this mucky brown shit). We have also been talking about going to Crater Lake and the lava tunnels here in Southern Oregon, both of which I am really excited to go to. Lots of hiking involved with both, and I LOVE exploring. :D

I probably won’t post an actual weight post next Friday seeing as my husband will be here, and he’s more important than any of you fuckers (yeah, I said it…). I don’t expect to have much of a web presence then, so here’s a warning. I’ll try to remember to post about the boot and if I still have to wear it.

This. Is the end of the post.


My 10% goal present!

I have a problem.

Well, several if you want to get technical.

But this problem is with buying so many nail polishes.

Instead of getting a massage like my husband suggested, I spent $30 on nail polishes that I’ve wanted. Not only is it good for my collection, but it will keep me happier for a longer period, and I don’t feel like I have wasted my money.

….I would have spent much more on it if I could have.

So! I took pictures of the manicure I gave myself last night, and the rest of the stash I got. :)

First up, indirect sunlight picture of my hand.

The colors are Sally Hansen HD Hue and DVD. Here’s the shot in direct sunlight.

The DVD (purple) is very pretty in person. It’s a pearlescent blue/purple glitter with 3 layers to make it mostly opaque. I fucking love it! Hue (yellow) is my first true yellow polish. I probably should have switched the 2 colors and had Hue on my ringer finger, but whatever. I like it like this!

Here are the other 4 polishes that I got.

From left to right they are Finger Paints Black Expressionism (I had no black nail polish, bad goth punk rock girl), Finger Paints Avante Garde Green (a shimmer green), China Glaze Flying Dragon (a neon fuchsia with blue and pink glitter),  and China Glaze Fairy Dust (a clear glitter polish…come on, it says FAIRY DUST).

I am going to do the Flying Dragon with Fairy Dust on my ring finger next when this mani starts chipping. I am so super excited about this haul. It’s only the second time I’ve bought expensive nail polish (in relation to the $2 stuff I’ve been buying). I wanted to buy some stuff from online (some Nfu Oh holo), but I decided that I am happy with this haul. :D

Will probably keep this as my % goal treats. It’s a good idea, and mostly cheap. :) Cannot wait to get more when I lose weight!

The day that was entirely too emotional…


The day I hit my fucking 10% lost goal.


Yeah. You read that right. I lost 5.8 lbs this week. I don’t know how I did it. I am fairly convinced that stress is the main cause for it all. But I am officially 240 pounds AND ALMOST UNDER IT.

This morning, before I weighed myself, after I woke up severely hungover (or still fucking drunk, I’m not sure), I saw a post from my husband on Google+. Our baby, our kitten, had not been adopted yet. Kudos to whoever wrote the description for him on the Oregon Humane Society page, though. Warcraft fan, ftw! *fistbump* I bawled. For a while. As much as I miss him, him not being adjusted to shelter life and having troubles getting adopted is fucking heartbreaking. And I’m so conflicted because if he doesn’t get adopted, we might be able to adopt him again!

So, that’s what caused a large amount of emotion this morning.

Then I lost a lot of weight. I didn’t do much this week other than go hiking up a hill for only 50 minutes. I am not sure if it’s the stress, my hormones balancing, or my body just getting used to the weight loss. I lost ten fucking percent of my starting weight. If you want to get really technical, since I came to Oregon last May, I have lost forty fucking pounds. Seriously. FORTY.

I am in a bit of shock. I didn’t expect weight loss this week. I’ve been going over  my calories, and not really exercising. I am losing as much weight as some people do on The Biggest Loser, but with doing hardly anything… It’s so conflicting. I am sitting here telling myself that it can’t be proper weight loss. The scale is wrong (it is, but we know by how much). It’s muscle loss. Everything I can to tell myself that there is no way this is proper weight loss.

That’s how fucked I am in the head.

So, emotional day today.

We looked at my ID last night, with my picture that was taken in July. Uh. I was fat. My face was very, very fluffy. Look at that! That was me back in July.

I mean, I’m still fat, but just not as much. I mean, this is me a few weeks ago. I’m probably even skinnier now, but I haven’t taken a good shot of myself in a while. That difference, though.

You really don’t notice this shit when it’s happening to you. :3

Here’s to another 30 lbs lost, hopefully another 40 shortly, and then I will be under 200 lbs for the first time in my adult life.